GET ME THE HELL OUTTA HERE!!

I just want to start off with saying that this week has not been a good one thus far!

I am itching to get out of my JOB! Literally my skin is itching and I am having the worse anxiety.
When things go wrong - they tend to CRUMBLE!

And this is why I listen to ASTROANNE
http://www.astroanne.com/

Here I am getting back on track. Yesterday, Mateo took me to a Yankee Game (as seen above!) - I have to say the man is killing me with KINDNESS. He treats me like a QUEEN and it is a breathe of fresh air to be appreciated although I do absolutely nothing to deserve it. Maybe I do - IDK.

Anywho - I have so much on my mind it is like a speeding train and I need to get off and observe the scenery once and a while. I am feeling so very grateful for my friends and the people around me. Just tons on my mind and brilliance comes when there is silence. So I am trying to SHUT this EGO up!!! and here I am writing to clear the mind.
What does Kristina WANT TO ACCOMPLISH ?? Hmmm
World peace - that is for dreamers!
I want to make the world a better place through ENCOURAGEMENT and MOTIVATION!! I WANT Others to see BEAUTY because when things are pretty and visibly appealing one would not want to Destroy it! - That is just what I believe.
I once wanted to begin a NON Profit Foundation and maybe that will Manifest with my clarity. I am not going to post my exact idea because I need to patent it first :)

I am scanning my memory bank to try and reveal my talent and for some reason I think I am putting too much thought into it because for some reason I FEEL the talent is there, I just need the motivation within to lead me to the next step. I just need to work on making KRISTINA better and all this will just fall into place.

I have great personal skills (although shy at times) , I am a great LEADER! I can have fun, organized, can be structured and yet flexible within that frame of mind. I am funny - I have tons of great qualities that could lead me to GREATNESS AND SUCCESS - so what is the Problem?

FEAR I believe and also the thought of wasting time - I can think - IT IS NEVER TOO LATE and then again I feel otherwise. The ego plays tricks and my ego is always on HIGH PITCH!!

So what do I love?
FASHION - but not the niddy griddy more the finished product - I LOVE DRESSING PEOPLE AND TELLING THEM WHAT TO WEAR - I think I am a good judge when it comes to these things!
HElPING OTHERS
LEADING
MEDIA
EVENTS
I like to be in the IN - I want to be involved in events - not the speaker - not the honoree (maybe) but mingling with prestigious people, kicking back and having fun, exchanging laughs and IDEAS.

I have tons of Ideas but don't know how to COMMUNICATE THEM (working on this!).

I want to be more behind the scenes but not always bouncing around and not always behind a computer either. I don't mind working with budgets, numbers, planning and organizing - so WHAT TO DO?

I have heard the following - PUBLIC RELATIONS, MARKETING, BRAND MARKETING, BRAND MANAGEMENT, FASHION COORDINATOR, IMAGE CONSULTANT, VISUAL MERCHANDING, EVENT COORDINATOR, VISUAL COMMUNICATIONS, CREATIVE COMMUNICATIONS AND MANAGEMENT... so what continues to ring true ???
Creativity, Visuals, marketing, and relations as all these deal with providing a service to the PUBLIC...

HELP ME :( ANY THOUGHTS MY LOVELIES?

XOXO
DAFABKRIS