Wednesday, June 30, 2010

GET ME THE HELL OUTTA HERE!!


I just want to start off with saying that this week has not been a good one thus far!

I am itching to get out of my JOB! Literally my skin is itching and I am having the worse anxiety.
When things go wrong - they tend to CRUMBLE!

And this is why I listen to ASTROANNE
http://www.astroanne.com/

Here I am getting back on track. Yesterday, Mateo took me to a Yankee Game (as seen above!) - I have to say the man is killing me with KINDNESS. He treats me like a QUEEN and it is a breathe of fresh air to be appreciated although I do absolutely nothing to deserve it. Maybe I do - IDK.

Anywho - I have so much on my mind it is like a speeding train and I need to get off and observe the scenery once and a while. I am feeling so very grateful for my friends and the people around me. Just tons on my mind and brilliance comes when there is silence. So I am trying to SHUT this EGO up!!! and here I am writing to clear the mind.
What does Kristina WANT TO ACCOMPLISH ?? Hmmm
World peace - that is for dreamers!
I want to make the world a better place through ENCOURAGEMENT and MOTIVATION!! I WANT Others to see BEAUTY because when things are pretty and visibly appealing one would not want to Destroy it! - That is just what I believe.
I once wanted to begin a NON Profit Foundation and maybe that will Manifest with my clarity. I am not going to post my exact idea because I need to patent it first :)

I am scanning my memory bank to try and reveal my talent and for some reason I think I am putting too much thought into it because for some reason I FEEL the talent is there, I just need the motivation within to lead me to the next step. I just need to work on making KRISTINA better and all this will just fall into place.

I have great personal skills (although shy at times) , I am a great LEADER! I can have fun, organized, can be structured and yet flexible within that frame of mind. I am funny - I have tons of great qualities that could lead me to GREATNESS AND SUCCESS - so what is the Problem?

FEAR I believe and also the thought of wasting time - I can think - IT IS NEVER TOO LATE and then again I feel otherwise. The ego plays tricks and my ego is always on HIGH PITCH!!

So what do I love?
FASHION - but not the niddy griddy more the finished product - I LOVE DRESSING PEOPLE AND TELLING THEM WHAT TO WEAR - I think I am a good judge when it comes to these things!
HElPING OTHERS
LEADING
MEDIA
EVENTS
I like to be in the IN - I want to be involved in events - not the speaker - not the honoree (maybe) but mingling with prestigious people, kicking back and having fun, exchanging laughs and IDEAS.

I have tons of Ideas but don't know how to COMMUNICATE THEM (working on this!).

I want to be more behind the scenes but not always bouncing around and not always behind a computer either. I don't mind working with budgets, numbers, planning and organizing - so WHAT TO DO?

I have heard the following - PUBLIC RELATIONS, MARKETING, BRAND MARKETING, BRAND MANAGEMENT, FASHION COORDINATOR, IMAGE CONSULTANT, VISUAL MERCHANDING, EVENT COORDINATOR, VISUAL COMMUNICATIONS, CREATIVE COMMUNICATIONS AND MANAGEMENT... so what continues to ring true ???
Creativity, Visuals, marketing, and relations as all these deal with providing a service to the PUBLIC...

HELP ME :( ANY THOUGHTS MY LOVELIES?

XOXO
DAFABKRIS



Tuesday, June 29, 2010

PENIS OVER FRIENDSHIP - DON'T BE A VICTIM!!!

At work and I was just reflecting back on how much WOMEN choose Penis over Friendship.
Maybe we have all been there. Your boo calls or some guy you are seeing and you have plans with a close friend or maybe even your best friend, WHAT DO YOU DO?
Well this has happened to me too many a time; me being the best friend that gets the - " I just chose the PENIS OVER YOU PHONE CALL OR TEXT!"
And I took a poll with my guy friends because I already know the answer for the females. The question was Would you do this for Pussy? if you had plans with one of your boys would you cancel to have sex? And the answer was UNANIMOUS!! NO!!! Only if it was a girl I felt I needed to put work in for because I haven't tasted that yet.
This led me to ponder on why us as Women do this to our nearest and dearest.
Here is my CONCLUSION - Women are INSECURE!! We are so afraid that if we don't please our men they will go else where so we jump when they call. We also THINK that our men will do the same for us and yes they do but they fit us into their schedules, they will come see us after they hand with their boys!!!

Here is a little story I like to share about MY EX FRIEND Jizelle. Jizelle was always very insecure she was severely overweight but put herself together very nicely. Well remember Chris the Love of my Life?? Well, back in Spring 2008 we were broken up for about 3 months and I was severely depressed, this is actually when I hit rock bottom people. I felt alone and abandoned because I too had made Chris my world, when he called I came RUNNING !! (when you don't make guys work for it - THEY DON'T!!! MEN LOVE A CHALLENGE - I learned that the HARD WAY!!!) Ok back on track...Well Jizelle my friend whom I was always there for ( I can write a book on just our years of friendship) wasn't really there for me when I needed her. I just want to throw this out there, I really cleaned up shop with my "FRIENDS" in 2008 - 2009 because I pretty much always had my ish together and that year I was BROKEN and SCATTERED and I came to realize that the people I was ALWAYS there for; the moment I needed them were well RIDING PENIS!!! OK, OK seriously now... I had called her one day crying, asking her to come hang out with me because I was DEPRESSED and needed a friend. Her response, " I really wish I could ma, I have to do something for my family, but I promise on Friday!" So what could i say? She through the leverage in there - the family!! See how sneaky people are especially when they know you. I couldn't argue that! But guess what happened?

You will never guess anyway - her step dad that was trying to help me FIND A JOB sends me an email and says, " How was the YANKEE GAME last night?" and my response , " Huh? what are you talking about?" and then he said Jizelle - yes the girl I considered to be one of my BESTEST FRIENDS FOR YEARS!!! Went to a YANKEE GAME WITH HER EX BOYFRIEND and ended up in a HOTEL with him! Now this is the same guy that cheated on her multiple times.
SEE HOW PENIS RULES??

My best friend that was there for me all these years, that is DEPRESSED AND ACTUALLY NEEDS ME Or <> PENIS FROM MY EX BOYFRIEND THAT CHEATED ON ME ???

DECISIONS, DECISIONS and HANDS DOWN THE PENIS WON!!!

Did Jizelle ever see him after that ? Well - NO ! it was a ONE NIGHTER and she ended up losing ME and getting into DEEP ISH WITH HER MOM WHOM SHE LIED TO!!
Pues until next time Kids,

XOXO
DA FAB KRIS - WOOT WOOT

SOME DAYS ARE JUST BETTER THAN OTHERS

My life in a NUTSHELL ?!! = COMPLICATED!!!!!

I have been seeing this guy named Matthew... that in itself is COMPLICATED. He is my cousin's cousin and that story is just funny. We met 10 years ago ( that actually seems to be the norm for me, I end up with guys I have known for a while) and dated then we went our seperate ways and coincidentally we both got out of 5 year long relationships around the same time.
Matthew is like HEAD OVER HEELS CRAZY ABOUT ME! why?? Bc I am AWESOME! LOL

I have this theory about ULTIMATES- I am Matthew's Ultimate - like this woman that could do no wrong, this woman he admires. Unfortunately, I care for him but MY HEART is still bound to Mr. Rivera :(

Anywho - So here I am having just one of those days.

Does Love last FOREVER?
I feel it does and according to my convo with Mel so does she.

THE UNIVERSE DOES NOT GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT UNTIL YOU ARE READY AND LEARN YOUR LESSONS!!!
I haven't learned them yet, CHEERS TO TRIAL AND ERROR.

Let the Clarity shine in!!

xoxo
DaFABKRIS

Monday, June 28, 2010

FIGURING MYSELF OUT

Oh Lord! Today has been super hard to deal with. I am trying to figure myself out. I love ASTROLOGY and all the METAPHYSICAL. Now what should I do for a CAREER? I get bored so easily ... I just don't know... HELP ME!!!!


KRISTINA Sex F
New York, NY 36 United States 01/24/1984 15:47 - Julian day 2445724.37
Adjust 5.00 ST 0.04 Lat 40.43 Long 74.00

Planet Positions, Ascendant, & Houses

The following table shows the position of the planets in your chart, by sign and degree. On the right, you will find the sign of your Ascendant and the signs on the cusp of each house in your natal chart. The Roman Numerals refer to the houses, where the Ascendant is also the first house and the Midheaven is also the tenth house. For example, if the sign Taurus is next to Mars, you know your Mars is in Taurus. If the sign Libra is next to Venus, you know your Venus is in Libra. If Cancer is next to Ascendant, you have a Cancer Ascendant, and if Leo is next to II, Leo is on your 2nd house.


Zodiac in degrees 0.00 Placidus Orb:0
SunAquarius 4.04 AscendantCancer19.49
MoonLibra29.51 IILeo 9.21
MercuryCapricorn 9.55 IIIVirgo 2.13
VenusSagittarius28.53 IVLibra 1.13
MarsScorpio 6.52 VScorpio 7.34
JupiterCapricorn 1.07 VISagittarius16.14
SaturnScorpio15.35 VIICapricorn19.49
UranusSagittarius12.21 VIIIAquarius 9.21
NeptuneCapricorn 0.13 IXPisces 2.13
PlutoScorpio 2.06 MidheavenAries 1.13
LilithPisces 4.55 XITaurus 7.34
Asc nodeGemini14.46 XIIGemini16.14

Aspects

The following table shows the planetary aspects in your natal chart. Short interpretations are found below.



PlanetAspectPlanetOrb/Value
SunSquareMoon 4.13 -40
SunSquareMars 2.48 -89
SunSquarePluto 1.58 -78
SunSextileMidheaven 2.51 40
MoonSextileVenus 0.58 243
MoonConjunctionMars 7.01 81
MoonSextileJupiter 1.16 96
MoonSextileNeptune 0.22 200
MoonConjunctionPluto 2.15 465
MercurySextileMars 3.03 100
MercuryConjunctionJupiter 8.48 31
MercuryConjunctionNeptune 9.42 12
VenusConjunctionJupiter 2.14 186
VenusConjunctionNeptune 1.19 312
VenusSextilePluto 3.13 47
VenusSquareMidheaven 2.20 -43
MarsConjunctionSaturn 8.43 23
MarsConjunctionPluto 4.46 330
JupiterConjunctionNeptune 0.55 127
JupiterSextilePluto 0.59 68
JupiterSquareMidheaven 0.06 -25
SaturnTrineAscendant 4.14 19
NeptuneSextilePluto 1.54 47
NeptuneSquareMidheaven 1.01 -17
2427 -292 2135

Asteroids & Chiron

The following table shows the positions of the four major asteroids and Chiron. These points are not as commonly used by astrologers, but are presented here for those interested in knowing where the asteroids are positioned in their birth chart.

ChironTaurus28.12 R
CeresPisces10.25
PallasAquarius12.46
JunoTaurus10.16
VestaGemini15.48 R
FortuneAries 0.00
South nodeAries 0.00

Natal Chart Report

Birth Chart

This birth chart report shows the positions of the planets for KRISTINA .

The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.

Sun in Aquarius

One of the standout characteristics of those born under the Sun Sign of Aquarius is their unwillingness to follow the beaten track. With advancement and progress on their minds, there can be an irreverence to old and outdated ways of thinking and doing things. Many Aquarians aim to free themselves of personal and social conditioning. Although open to change in theory, Aquarians can be surprisingly stubborn. Their idealism runs strong, but they can be very fixed in their opinions.

Often a bit aloof and even standoffish, Aquarians nonetheless are usually well-liked. They are curious and observant, and tolerant in a broad sense. Prejudice and bias is offensive to the typical Aquarius. Aquarians are generally very clever, witty, and intellectual. They value progress and frankness. It's difficult to throw Aquarians for a loop--they're generally on top of things. There is a bit of reformer in Aquarius. They'll try to get you to see through superficiality, and encourage you to be open and forthright. "Be true to yourself" and "Don't follow the crowd" are mottos we easily associate with this sign. Aquarians need space and value personal freedom. Any attempt to box them in will likely fail. They'll happily return the favor; and they will treat people from all walks of life as equals. Equality and fairness are hallmarks of the sign. If you're quirky and "different", all the better.

Short description:

She is independent, autonomous, and has progressive ideas.

Weaknesses: an unusual, rebellious and revolutionary spirit.

Aquarius ascendant Cancer

Sun in VII

You take pride in your ability to negotiate, and to establish harmony in your relationships. It is important to you to have a partner, as you feel incomplete without one. You are motivated to become well-liked, and you are especially sensitive to rejection. One of the lessons in your life may be to avoid putting harmony and others' opinions of you above your own needs. Use your social skills and seek out peaceful relations with others, but try not to over-identify with your partnerships and the way you are received by others. You may marry someone with a strong personality.

-40 Square Sun - Moon

You have an internal struggle between your needs and your wants. You can lack focus and be indecisive as a result. Your ability to be objective is both an asset and a liability, simply because when you decide on one route, you are pulled in another direction at the same time. Something tugs at you, and you begin to question your stance. "But what if..." and "on the other hand..." are statements you can't help but make, and that might plague you. You are always aware of the opposing point of view and the other side of the coin.

-89 Square Sun - Mars

You possess an unmistakable competitiveness and a "me-first" attitude. The fighter persona is most apparent in youth, when the child is described as a "bundle of energy", or it is remarked that he or she "can't sit still". The abundant energy generated by this aspect is hard to direct in childhood. Later in life, ideally, those with these aspects have learned to channel some of their excess energy into productive avenues--perhaps through career, sports, or any area where competitiveness is considered an asset. Nevertheless, you can meet up with more than your share of conflict, and you can sometimes rub people the wrong way. You are very motivated to get things done, to take action rather than simply talk about something, and to get from point A to point B as quickly as possible. Those who know you quite well might describe you as hot-headed and temperamental at times. You are easily frustrated, and you're given to impulsive actions. If the aspect is found in cardinal signs, it gives impulsiveness and a short temper. If the aspect is found in fixed signs, the natives can be very hard-headed and willful. If it's in mutable signs, it gives a restless and frustrated impatience.Essentially, you have faced conflict and are not particularly afraid of it. You have faced having your need to assert yourself blocked. Your parents may have done as much as they could to "tame" what they felt to be excess energy or aggression. In other words, you know all about conflict and blockages, so that when you are faced with a challenge or a roadblock, you don't run away from it or hide under the covers feeling sorry for yourself. You meet challenges head-on.

-78 Square Sun - Pluto

You may be prone to inner tension and negative, self-destructive behavior. When things are going well, you suffer from fears that something will come along to change that. Constantly worrying that the rug will be pulled from under your feet can easily become a self-fulfilling prophecy. You possess tremendous power and strength--when you learn to accept and use that strength, instead of fear it, you can be one of the most effective, insightful, helpful, and healing person around! At times, you can be intensely dissatisfied with your personal accomplishments and expressions of self. You put a lot of pressure on yourself regarding your own endeavors. You can be quite dissatisfied with your creative self-expressions, and want to hide your expressions from others until you feel the output is "right". This is largely due to a perceived inability to express or reveal your true personality to others. You struggle with a deep need to control yourself and life itself. You are especially sensitive to criticism, and feel the need to "redo" yourself often. There is a marked fear of losing control, and this might stem from some traumatic event in childhood, or the childhood might have been crisis-ridden or emotionally-charged in general. As such, you can be intensely fearful of, or threatened by, change. This can express itself through attempts to control your life in such a way that you can manage your fears of being taken off guard. Of course, this generally backfires! You have an intense need for privacy at times.

40 Sextile Sun - Midheaven

She knows what she wants on the professional level, is aware of her objectives and does everything to achieve them, she will carry out plans to the very end. She has a good job as well as a good reputation.

The Moon represents the emotional responses, unconscious pre-destination, and the self-image.

Moon in Libra

Moon in Libra people have a strong need for partnership. Without someone to share their lives with, they feel utterly incomplete. This is why many people with this position get involved in marriages or living-together arrangements quite young. Because this drive for harmony, peace, and sharing is so powerful, Lunar Librans are apt to do a lot of conceding. They are sympathetic and concerned for others, enjoy socializing, and revel in a good debate. Mental rapport with others is especially important to them.

Lunar Librans feel safe and secure when they are in a partnership. These are the people who seem to always need to have someone tag along with them wherever they go -- even if it is to the corner store. They find strength and reinforcement in and through others. Both men and women with this position are often quite charming. They can be very attractive to be around, and are often given to flirtatiousness. Rarely directly aggressive, these people win your heart with their gentle and refined ways.

Moon in Libra natives simply can't help but see flaws in their environment and their relationships. In fact, anything out of whack will bother them until it's fixed. Although diplomatic with acquaintances, when Moon in Libra natives argue with their long-standing partners, they rarely let up until they win. And, winning an argument is a Libran specialty--in fact, they may not even believe what they are saying, but will adopt all kinds of ideas just to get the last word. Living with Lunar Librans can sometimes feel like you are on trial, and Libra is the expert lawyer. Sometimes, though, Libra is defending you and supporting your point of view. Lunar Librans' idealistic outlook and constant striving for the best, most harmonious lifestyle can lead to much discontent. Looking for that one (elusive) perfect way to lead their lives can detract from enjoyment of the moment.

Short description:

She is sociable and popular. Has good judgement, she is intelligent and reasonable. Likes social pleasures.

Weaknesses: instability in loving relationships, unfaithfulness, gives too much weight to the views of others and to public opinion.

Moon in IV

She likes family life, peace and quiet -- she likes to stay at home, surrounded by loved ones, in agreeable circumstances. Strongly influenced by the mother.

You long for a sense of true belonging, but you may be quite restless in your search. You might change residence frequently, or simply feel the need to make many changes in your home. Moving frequently may be a healthy thing if it keeps you emotionally stimulated, but if you find that you do so on whims and later regret the changes, you might want to treat it as a symptom of emotional unrest--as a sign that you are in a constant search for the perfect mood and setting, when in fact a feeling of belonging should be worked on from the inside out, not the outside in! Some of you might remain rather immature on an emotional level, never wanting to truly grow up and take care of yourself. Attachments to your past, traditions, and family are strong.

243 Sextile Moon - Venus

You are generally amiable and project a soft and yielding manner. You possess natural charm and you are highly imaginative and sympathetic. You can make an excellent mediator and go-between. You are keenly aware of your need for relationships and for intimacy. You have a well-developed respect for qualities typically associated with the feminine. People appreciate you for your tender heart and friendly, diplomatic disposition. You should enjoy a good measure of personal popularity and success in your life. Although generally considered "lucky" with relationships and with money, this is less about luck than it is about a certain level of inner peace and positive energy that attracts pleasant situations. At times you can be complacent, downright lazy, and over-indulgent in the "pleasures" of life. However, you are a peace-maker at heart and have an unusual ability to help and heal others. You are gracious and warm.

81 Conjunction Moon - Mars

You are a passionate person who loves life. Although your emotions are powerful and immediate, your passion is generally controlled and directed. You are a sexual person who nevertheless doesn't get too carried away or controlled by your passions. Because your emotions are strong and you know how to channel them into constructive channels, you don't easily understand such things as "crimes of passion", impulsive behaviors, or emotional excitability in others. You're generally open, accepting, and natural in your sexual expression. You need an emotional connection in order to feel complete on a physical level. You may have an affection and talent for sports, but other factors in the natal chart are necessary to provide the motivation and commitment.

Short description: She is frank, honest, full of vigor and ambition. She is strong-willed and powerful at work. She is a little hard on herself but, above all, on others whose capacity for action is not as great.

96 Sextile Moon - Jupiter

She is generally pleasantly composed, due to an inner sense of harmony and emotional balance. She is optimistic--and realistically so, most of the time--which contributes to her overall "luck". She is able to get a real perspective on emotional matters that not only benefits her outlook, she is able to offer support to others when needed. Broad-mindedness is a wonderful characteristic. Quick to find humor in situations, she is generally warm and fun to be around. Deep down, she believes in the basic goodness of people and of life in general, and this basic and natural attitude helps her to attract positive circumstances and to make good connections. One of her best qualities is tolerance. Usually, she doesn't take life too seriously in the sense that she believes in having a bit of fun. her hunches are more often than not bang-on.

She is frank, honest, optimistic and generous. She likes good cooking, her comforts. Her friendships are sincere. She is a worker and knows how to surround herself with the right people: She is appreciated at work.

200 Sextile Moon - Neptune

Positive aspect: She is kind and sympathetic, with a strongly compassionate nature. When in love, she is usually very devoted. In fact, she is devoted by nature, not only in matters of the heart.

There is an unmistakably compassionate and understanding side to her nature. She has a natural affinity to music. While everyone enjoys music, people with Moon in harmonious aspect to Neptune respond to music as a vehicle to heal, relax, and to uplift the soul. Naturally perceptive, without even trying she tunes into the feelings of others, and the mood of her surroundings. There is a distinct emotional need to escape into the world of imagination, and to withdraw from others at times when she needs to re-center herself, largely because she tends to "take in" a lot of mixed energies from her surroundings. Strong and sudden "feelings" and hunches can overcome her. More often than not, her intuition is correct, although her imagination is also powerful and she can read too much into a situation as a result. Some laziness is associated with this position. This stems from a natural timidity and sensitivity that is apparent from youth. She may have been labeled "shy" in youth, and family members or friends may have jumped in to "save" her from situations that required boldness or aggressiveness. Thus, passivity was accepted and, as adults, she may be less experienced than most when it comes to reaching out or going after what she wants.

465 Conjunction Moon - Pluto

She wavers between a rich and successful domestic life and social success. She has difficulty in succeeding in both. Very perceptive and given to psychoanalyzing people. A strategist. Powerful emotions and intense feelings.

Mercury represents communication, Cartesian and logical spirit.

Mercury in Capricorn

Her mind compartmentalizes impressions, and she appreciates structure and order. The mind learns best when it can see practical uses for information. Resourceful, reflective, deep thinker: a fine and vivacious mind. Undertakes lengthy studies or, if circumstances do not allow, will teach herself. A rational person. Can be pessimistic, skeptical, and sarcastic, possessing a very sharp sense of humor. Notices everything.

Mercury in VI

Medical profession. Serviceable and generous nature. Meets their soul brother at work, or (if not) through family contacts.

You are a person who thinks of all the details that others forget. Your mind is almost always turned "on" which can make you a little nervous. You are excellent at sorting things out, organizing, and making lists and associations. With your attention to the details and the mechanics, however, you might miss the bigger point! You are exceptionally helpful and others can count on you for making arrangements, researching, and offering advice. You truly love to feel useful. You might have some traits of a hypochondriac, as you notice all of the little aches and pains that others might overlook. Nervous tension could be at the root of many of your health complaints. Many of you are good at crafts, mechanics, or anything that requires good manual dexterity.

100 Sextile Mercury - Mars

She likes to discuss, likes polemic. She has good judgment and is determined. She is a worker and has lots of energy. She has a lively intelligence and goes to the heart of things. She is enthusiastic, incisive, and energetic in thought and speech.

31 Conjunction Mercury - Jupiter

She is intelligent, has big ideas: she is tolerant and has a strong sense of justice. She has good judgement, good sense and has her feet on the ground. She has the "gift of the gab", and likes to speak, she also likes literature. She is erudite and will normally be successful socially.

12 Conjunction Mercury - Neptune

She can put down in writing everything that her imagination and intuition dictates.

Venus represents an interest for emotions and values, exchange and sharing with others.

Venus in Sagittarius

When Venus in Sagittarius people are in love, they need to feel they can grow and expand their horizons through their relationship. They want to learn new things, and experience everything together. These are idealistic lovers who want you to appreciate their beliefs, visions, and ideals. They can be a confusing mix of the lighthearted and serious. They are roamers and seekers, and don't commit in their relationships as easily as others. Venus in Sagittarius men and women turn others on with their big smiles and laughs, their jokes, their grand schemes, their dreams, and their friendly, flirtatious behavior. They pride themselves on their open minds, but you may notice they can be judgmental too. They are threatened by inhibitions on the part of their lover, dullness, and emotional overkill. They are restless, and won't put up with lovers who dwell on any one thing. When the going gets tough in their relationship, they have an overwhelming need to run away. Usually this only means getting out and experiencing something new before they come back, but sometimes it can be for good. They are attracted to people in love with life. You don't need to be refined, polished, or graceful to win their favor.

Pleasing Venus in Sagittarius involves allowing them lots of room in the relationship to grow. Avoid getting stuck in a rut, and understand their need to move on. Learn to laugh, but take their rants and raves seriously. Avoid criticizing their beliefs, join them in debates, and philosophize along with them. When they feel the need for more experience, join them! Learn to look past their clumsiness with you and your feelings, and avoid cornering them or forcing them to commit.

Venus in VI

She may be devoted to sick or poor people. Might work in a medical or social setting, where she meets their partner, who is a great help professionally.

Your expressions of love and affection are practical and helpful. Being of service to a partner is especially important to you. In fact, you might go to great lengths to be available at all costs to a loved one. While you may not be flowery or showy when it comes to expressing love, you show your love by your availability, rendering services, doing practical things for a loved one, and other thoughtful "little" things. Many of you are talented at design work, as you appreciate and pay much attention to all of the little parts that make up a whole, with the goal of finding order and harmony in these systems. If you are not careful, you might pass up on true love opportunities in favor of relationships that serve a practical purpose in your life, or out of fear that you might not find better. Selling yourself short may be something that keeps you from going after what and who you want.

186 Conjunction Venus - Jupiter

She is good-hearted, generous and has a good character. She likes well-being, comfort, a life without problems. She has good relations with her circle. She is easy to approach. All the same, she falls in love easily. She has a successful married and professional life.

312 Conjunction Venus - Neptune

Her professional life is unstable. She has a taste for the Arts, is a dreamer, is easily influenced and romantic. She is emotional and very sensitive.

Romantic, creative, gentle, and adaptable, you naturally express the finer qualities of mysterious and dreamy Neptune in your love relationships. Your imagination is rich and your fantasy world well-developed. You are turned off by rudeness and crudeness, and are drawn to beauty in its many forms. You are very giving and generous, but may be a little on the submissive side, or sometimes downright lazy, failing to take the initiative when situations call for it.

47 Sextile Venus - Pluto

Her emotional and sex life is powerful and rich. She lives out truly passionate love affairs.

-43 Square Venus - Midheaven

She is vain and jealous. Both married life and professional life are difficult with such a character.

Mars represents the desire for action and physical energy.

Mars in Scorpio

Mars in Scorpio natives love to challenge themselves to do the impossible. They throw themselves into what they decide to do with concentrated energy and awesome willpower. These people make formidable opponents, although often quietly so. They keep their cool and their equilibrium on the surface. Below the surface may be another story, and they are unlikely to easily let you in. Mars in Scorpio has the potential to exploit others--these people see through others, and rely heavily on their gut feelings. The sexual stamina of this position is thought to be the strongest of all the positions of Mars. Sometimes, Mars in Scorpio people are attracted to taboos, and their fantasies may involve blowing the taboos to smithereens! They enjoy scenarios in which the "other" is giving in to them, wants them completely, and will do absolutely anything for them. And, their sexual appeal is strong enough that they generally do get what they want.

They find it difficult to share their partners, though they will likely never admit this. In stark contrast to Mars in Libra, who is most comfortable with the middle ground, Mars in Scorpio has a black-or-white philosophy of life. These are the people who say, "Just choose!" They really are not comfortable with compromise--what kind of satisfaction could you possibly get from compromise? Real living, to Mars in Scorpio, is all about accepting challenges and making changes. These people constantly test themselves, and, often, others. They make all kinds of rules and goals, just for the personal satisfaction that comes from achieving or mastering them. Their survival instincts are strong, and they embrace their own animal nature when they are all alone with themselves, without guilt.

These people have a provocative quality to them. This quality is usually most evident in youth, though it is often carried over into adulthood in more subtle, controlled ways. Mars in Scorpio natives who have low self-esteem can become mighty twisted. Instead of beating themselves up, they turn self-loathing outward, and end up manipulating others and feeling resentful. While Mars in Libra is constantly striving to bring fairness to the world, Mars in Scorpio knows that life simply isn't fair.

Mars in IV

Quick decisions, she has a lot of things on her plate and wants to climb the social ladder. She will succeed through phenomenal work-rate. Stormy family life, where her aggressiveness shows itself.

23 Conjunction Mars - Saturn

She is energetic and determined. She has strength and resistance, ability and patience: she is tough, and sometimes insensitive, and puts all her energy and talents into overcoming all the obstacles to her success. She is obstinate, calculating, does not take on anything without having thought of all the possible consequences, she can take all the time in the world and never loses patience to achieve her objectives. She is not particularly popular in her circle, but is feared and respected.

330 Conjunction Mars - Pluto

She is ambitious, has a great capacity for work, has self-confidence and goes to the end of her plans.

Jupiter represents expansion and grace.

Jupiter in Capricorn

She attracts the most good fortune when she organizes and directs, conducts herself with integrity, is ethical, and mature. Values the long term, achievement, responsibility, and manifestation. Succeeds through resourcefulness and avoiding activities that waste time, energy, or resources. Good at streamlining. Position or status is important to her.

Jupiter in VI

She can be quite lucky in the working world. She may sometimes lose a little in the world of business in the short term because of high principles and standards for dealing with others, but wins in the long term due to these very same moral standards. She helps the sick and under-privileged with kindness. Probably overdoes the good life, enjoys rich foods, and she likes animals, the country.

127 Conjunction Jupiter - Neptune

She is very generous and altruistic, helping people in difficulty or sick people. She knows how to listen or, at least, how to give that impression. She is a dreamer, with lots of imagination: she likes the Arts.

68 Sextile Jupiter - Pluto

She likes to direct, is intelligent and is an organizer of the first order.

-25 Square Jupiter - Midheaven

She aims big and is often disappointed with small advancements or successes, wishing they were bigger and better. She may bring every conversation around to herself, which is a tendency that should be kept in check. She has highs and lows in her professional life.

Saturn represents contraction and effort.

Saturn in Scorpio

Observant, self-controlled, unforgiving, tough, methodical, a researcher, an investigator. Lots of courage, self-assurance and can keep her cool.

Weaknesses: makes no concessions or compromises. She can become a fanatic of a creed, a party, work or a religion.

Saturn in V

She likes method, calculation, concentration. She is not drawn towards amusements, or pleasure in general. She has few friends, but has deep and sincere feelings. She is serious in everything.

19 Trine Saturn - Ascendant

She is serious, sober, thoughtful, pays attention to detail. She likes to be with older people.

Uranus represents individual liberty, egoistic liberty.

Uranus in Sagittarius

She is shy, delicate but proud, bold and lively.

Uranus in V

She is independent, likes even dubious distractions. Her amorous adventures are not only numerous but also very complicated, otherwise they hold no charm.

Neptune represents transcendental liberty, non-egoistic liberty.

Neptune in Capricorn

She is discerning, wise and sensible.

Neptune in VI

She is more prone than most to the bad influence of alcohol, medicines and drugs. To be avoided at all costs.

47 Sextile Neptune - Pluto

-17 Square Neptune - Midheaven

She lacks assurance, self-confidence. She does not always choose the right path.

Pluto represents transformations, mutations and elimination.

Pluto in Scorpio

Great sexual activity.

House I is the area of self identity. The ascendant is a symbol of how one acts in life. It is the image of the personality as seen by others, and the attitude that one has towards life.

Aquarius ascendant Cancer

Ascendant in Cancer

These people come across as gentle creatures. There's something familiar about them -- they're the guy or gal next door. When they enter a room, they don't walk in with a splash. Instead, they move to the sides and weave their way inwards. These people have a familiar feel to them. Because they are rather sensitive to their environment, they can get flustered easily, especially in public. Their first instinct, when threatened or on unfamiliar ground, is to protect themselves. When new situations present themselves, they can immediately withdraw or act shy. Generally, these people come across as caring people. They seem quite sweet -- even innocent. Usually, these people appear unassuming enough to be quite approachable. Some Cancer Ascendants, however, have retreated into themselves so much as to be quite the opposite.

Since Capricorn is on the Descendant, Cancer Ascendant people are looking for structure and security in their partner and their relationship. These people function best when their partner displays strength, financial and emotional stability, and know-how. In fact, many Cancer Ascendants prefer it when their relationship has well-defined rules. Security is the basic need, and they are generally more than willing to give up some personal freedom in order to get it. In some cases, Cancer Ascendant people can surprise their partners. Why? Because they come across as rather unassuming, family-oriented people. When it comes to marriage, they have a rather matter-of-fact, practical approach.

House II is the area of material security and values. It rules money and personal finances, sense of self-worth and basic values, personal possessions.

House II in Leo

Financial success will be very easy thanks to the support of influential people. Tendency to spend more than what is earned. Financial progress is slow but steady. Generous with loved ones and children.

House III is the area of social and intellectual learning.

House III in Virgo

She pulls everything to pieces, analyzes, criticizes. Over-thinking and over-analyzing is probable. A busy early environment. She is proactive, tends to details and takes care of things in an efficient manner. Doesn't take on anything without examining the pros and the cons. She is very careful, sometimes to a manic extent, taking everything into account even to the slightest detail.

House IV is the area of home, family, roots, and deep emotions/sense of self-worth.

House IV in Libra

The simple life, the small home isn't for her. If the job doesn't pay well or she doesn't marry well financially speaking, she will probably be unhappy. Likes luxury goods to make life comfortable, going out, cocktail parties. Goes round only with refined people, perhaps sometimes a little too affected, and with good jobs.

House V is the area of creative self-expression, romance, entertainment, children, and gambling.

House V in Scorpio

Gets blinded by and drunk with love: everything revolves around her love. Her passions are angry, exclusive and domestic quarrels are in prospect as a result. Fertile love life.

House VI is the area of learning by material transaction.

House VI in Sagittarius

Likes jobs that involve travel, moving about a lot. Weak point: the circulation of the blood.

House VII is the area of one-to-one relationships such as marriage and partnership, and of social and intellectual action.

House VII in Capricorn

A love-and-friendship marriage. Unproblematic, quiet relationship. A few hiccups, but nothing really serious. Faithfulness.

House VIII is the area of emotional security and of security of the soul.

House VIII in Aquarius

An unexpected inheritance.

House IX is the area of learning that shapes the identity.

House IX in Pisces

Likes sea cruises. Sometimes has brilliant ideas that come from nowhere.

House X is the area of material action. The Mid-heaven represents the work one will do in his life, the place one will take in the world of society. It becomes more important as one grows older

House X in Aries

All the leadership qualities are there: authority, energy, initiative, leadership, lots of gung-ho and of course intelligence.

House XI is the area of search for social and intellectual security.

House XI in Taurus

Likes to be surrounded by frank and good-hearted friends. These friendships don't stand on ceremony. Carries out everything she undertakes surely, composedly, calmly until successful.

House XII is the area of education and of emotion.


House XII in Gemini

Anxiety, preoccupation concerning a dear one.


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Saturday, June 26, 2010

MOVING RIGHT ALONG

On one early Saturday morning!! So I decided to show my MOTHER my blog, she has never been my greatest supporter. What can I say, I have to do what is right for me! Do I care? a little but it is what it is. I decided a LONG time ago that I CANNOT PLEASE EVERYONE! so as long as I please myself that is what it is going to be; KRISTINA AGAINST THE WORLD!! Yesterday I decided to enroll for the TORRID PLUS SIZE MODELING CONTEST. Very berry exciting. I have a set of goals that I set out this year for 2010 and here they are: I need to get HEALTHY!! I have a auto immune thyroid problem and it causes me to be extremely LETHARGIC, so I set out to do things and then BAMMMM I get to lazy to do them. Once I conquer this my CLARITY shall come... wohoooo and believe me I will conquer and destroy this. Let me just leave it there. One goal at a time.
I have so much to do today so this post will be short and maybe follow up with it later!

XOXO
DA FAB KRIS

Friday, June 25, 2010

THE ROAD TO SELF DISCOVERY

This is me in all my greatness. I am an aquarius which means I am a THINKER! Oh lordy do I think. I think about everything and anything! Well, NOW I am on this ROAD TO SELF DISCOVERY! I am 26 years old and just got off of the cyclone! Here is some background on Christina with A K :) In September 2009, the love of my life decided to break up with me because our relationship had hit a downward spiral for some time. Although one of the worst experiences of my life it was also manifested an empowering journey. I had already begun my journey about a year before but it didn't really kick into gear until this tragic moment in my life.
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE is CHRIS RIVERA. Ayyyyy Chris - we are like two souls that seem to find each other in each lifetime. He is a great teacher for me as he works my nerves like no other could. Which says a lot about me, I have yet to MASTER MYSELF!! Chris is like the thorn to my rose, the scent to my perfume, the yin to my yang! I will always and forever LOVE HIM! (as the tears flow down my face). Moving ahead because I can stick on that topic for - EVER.... These past few years I have been pretty hectic I must say. Many people that were around in my life like my ex best friend couldn't even deal with me anymore, couldn't deal with my complaining! My ex best friend (ERIN) - told me when I reached this ultimate pitfall in my relationship with Chris, "Kristina, I cannot be a GOOD FRIEND to you ALL THE TIME!". WOW!!! I thought, I never really needed her in that way and the summer I did, she responded with this. See I tend to lean on my friends A LOT! I love to be around people and this is sometimes seen as a flaw. In all honesty I had a great deal of FEAR surrounding me for years, there was a handful of things I did not fear, everything else I DID! I feared not being successful, ending up alone, not feeling loved, not feeling accepted; all these things weighed HEAVY on me FOR YEARS!! I had pushed all this weight on the people i held dear, ERIN and CHRIS and just about everyone else. Well, Erin could no longer take my ups and downs; I was literally DEPRESSED! I had reached this low and Erin said something to me that lit a FIRE under my booty! One day she called me miserable, she told me that I had these two sides to myself and one evil and one good and that she hoped the GOOD prevails. See I don't miss Erin, this is not me saying I screwed up, that was the UNIVERSE sending a fire signal through her DIRECTLY to ME! This happened in 2008 and that is when I began to re-evaluate my life. I know I AM NOT A MISERABLE PERSON! I was in a miserable stage in my life and did not know how to deal with it effectively. So I began an experiment - I decided to just toss myself at life and see where I fell and if I fell somewhere I did not like then I would just get up and bounce myself somewhere else. So that is what I did - I decided to go BACK TO GRAD SCHOOL for PSYCHOLOGY - I wanted to know why people think and do what they do. So I applied and I was accepted and in 2009 I started graduate school at Lehman College for School Counseling. My first semester marked a new beginning and an end to a 5 year long relationship with Chris. It hurt like hell but I had a bigger plan and it included LIVING FOR ME! Along with this new journey came a friend that I would not be where I am at this moment without her (Jennifer Tirado). Jenn found me BROKEN and Scattered, Open and Hollow inside but thirsty for knowledge and whatever came my way and JENN FILLED ME UP! She filled me with knowledge! That is all I really need - Thinker remember :) You just need to turn the wheels and they will start moving on there own :) I hope you enjoy my Blog and I hope you get to grasp a deeper understanding of my journey to ENLIGHTENMENT! I know I am enjoying the RIDE :) See you next post!!!

XOXO
DA FAB KRIS