It is about Forgiveness – but to WHOM and for WHAT?
My mind tends to play tricks on me. My mind (the ego) tends to lean more towards pain rather than HAPPINESS.
My life is not bad; I must say I am not down in a ditch; I just have this battle within myself.
I am struggling through marsh land, each step lifted is a strain.
I continue to allow Chris into my life knowing he only brings me pain. Why am I so concerned with his actions? His life?
Ultimately I have found this to be the ANSWER -> I am INSECURE. I somehow feel like a loser as if I am missing out on something with Chris. Anyone who has met me and even slightly knows my story tells me that he will regret it later. And he apologized but somehow still the fact that he has moved on. The fact that he doesn’t want me back but implants hope in my mind – is just TORMENTING MY SOUL!
The fact of the matter is that I WAS NOT HAPPY! I began to have Anxiety attacks and I know deep down to the depths of my soul that I DESERVE better and I keep settling and that stems from insecurity.
My new motto is HEART OVER FLESH. The flesh yearns for certain pleasures – worldly pleasures whereas the Heart is satisfied with simple joys!
I cannot WAIT to write down I am THE ISH and believe it WHOLE HEARTEDLY!
I cannot Wait to feel Ultimately Powerful over my life and my decisions.
THE JOURNEY CONTINUES… and the NEW PATH STARTS NOW!
xoxo
DAFABKRIS
